VORTECH(Y)

Artistic Vessel. Omnidisciplinary Scientist.

ALIAS: Tech/Senti [ It/Its ]

Before You Interact.

Bigots and exclusionists of ANY KIND are not welcome whatsoever.I DO NOT have a DNI. I DO block freely based on my discretion. If you have been blocked, please do not interact with me in any way.I am critical of all my interests.I use : ) + other emoticons in speech. Let me know if you don't want me to use them around you.I am often tired and may forget to respond to messages even when I see them. Please be patient as it may take up to 1-2 days for me to respond. If I don't respond after that, you are free to bump your message.I tend to be very chill and lowdown when speaking so I'd prefer if you match my energy. It's okay if you don't, it's just more draining for me to be hyper.

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Testing, testing, 1, 2, 3... This is Tech speaking. Erm, hi. This is my space for elaborating upon my identity, for cataloguing purposes. I find it satisfying to keep track of my personal growth, and this is the identity portion of it. You, current viewer of this site, are able to view this in case you want to hear about my experiences.

My name is Tech.

I quite like how nebulous it sounds and how it connects to something I like. I use Miles in real life (Moles as a nickname), borrowed from the character Miles from Electric Dreams (sorry man) and also who doesn't like Miles Edgeworth from the hit video game franchise Ace Attorney? It also doubles as a funny reference to chemistry. You should always call me Tech though, since it's a bit strange to use my real name online.

I guess I use this thing?

I use it/its pronouns, a change that came along with my name change to Tech online. At first, they were to test the waters with a hypothesis that had been brewing in my mind, but they've been surprisingly comfy and I find myself not wanting to go back.I like its connotations with objects and the dehumanizing aspect of it. As in, literally taking the human out of refering to me. It feels as if I am removing the need to be bound by human perceptions of gender, roles, behaviors, etc. I also severely dislike they/them being used on me for indiscernable reasons, so that's that.

Gender is confusing.

Alright, here comes the crazy talk. I don't know if I'm missing a gender or just lost having an innate sense of it. If you were to put it in human terms, you could consider me trans. Social dysphoria is strong like that. If society didn't exist with all of their views on gender and gender roles, I would be a lot more satisfied. But alas, I'm grounded to this Earth.I've been jumping from label to label for years at this point: cis (up until 14) -> genderfluid (very short lived) -> neutrois (1 year) -> transmasc/agender (3 years and counting!)And now, I don't really know. When I try to reach inside myself for a sense of gender, it comes up entirely empty. I would consider myself to primarily be agender / gendervoid / genderless, and just a teensy little bit transmasc.

On attraction.

All my life I never understood the concept of having a crush or feeling instantaneous attraction (and still can't really wrap my head around it!) (though logically, I suppose I understand). I saw most of it as entirely unappealing, and honestly, just accepted it as everyone else being strange.I've discovered that I don't feel romantic attraction unless I am already close with someone for years, aka. I am a demiromantic asexual. I currently have a best friend and partner, 9000, who is the most understanding and kind about everything that is me.There's been something else lately. I'm probably vaguely really queerplatonic as well. For now I say, who the hell cares.

On attraction... again??

Oh geez. I thought this topic was over? Oh nooooo. Attraction to objects has completely shattered my notion of being so safely aroace. Objects? Yeah, surprise, surprise I'm objectum. My awakening was a latent one, but the primary catalyst was... yup. Electric Dreams (a reeeall surprise I'm sure). I could go on about signs, the introspection that went on for months, and what I think the essence of being this is... but this section would be way too long. Saving that for my future personal website... wink wink.I form all types of relationships with electronics, machines, architecture, and places. I love large structures and small contraptions all the same. Oddly enough, I can get crushes on objects despite not getting them for humans. Shoutout to my Var, Bridge, and unnamed scooter <3This is a bit compounded with my... fervent desire for robots. Robots that are rectangles. Those clunky things, geometric if you will. With screens... But there is a complication with this too... re: next section.

Desire.

The age old question: do you want him or just his gender. Except it's not about gender, it's just your sense of self.Being human™ is not really very me. My eyes only see me as a vague humanoid shape because I don't really care about my body and I haven't for a long, long time. I don't think humans are supposed to feel this apathetic to the vessel of which others will percieve them at first sight. By certain definitions (others' peculiar ones and mine), I am an abject failure at this assignment. My body is dishonest to what I think. It is LESS than the sum of me. A crying fucking shame. I relate so much to robots damnnit!!! So if all robots are trans, then I guess I am one myself. And that comforts me like no other.I desire to actualize my form more than anything else. So be it. I'm an entity. In the way I want wires to mirror nerves and to be energy unchained. But at the same time I am realistic, so my joints will creak all the same and my own reassuring touch will be my new body itself. So I am a thing as well.